love from sister

      I was terribbly exciting to know what was going happen to my little cute sister.once when i came back from school,i saw mom and dad crying heavily seems like something bad was happen. i feel like the colour drained from my face.i tried to calm my mom and asked them what actually happened.mom said that doctor had told them that sarah had blood cancer and she only had less than a year to live due to the disease which was at stage 3.i did not want to show the feeling to them but my heart cried in despression.

     Why was sarah chosen by Him?she is too young to face all these.she also did not know or understand that she will not live for long.so,starting from that moment, I promised to myself that I never let her down and I also will try my best to make her happy during her days.I could see that her face was like a corpse,her body becomes weaker and something that i could not bear to face was her hair started to fall off whenever I combed her hair.I tried to control myself from bursting into tears.everyday she asked me and my parents about her hair.I convinced her that she would get well soon as long as she took her medicine everyday.I could not imagine how my life without any sibling?how could I live without hearing her laugh?I kept praying to God to give me the strength te prepare myself before I lost my beloved sister.

       Now,she only has 3 more months.she spent all her time at the hospital and depends on the medicine that were been given to her.she never refused to take her medicine eventhough he knew that her time is coming soon.I saw many tubes and wires all over her body that connected to the mechine.I knew she was suffering because her condition worsening days after days and her skin become used to the injection,needles and chemotheraphy.she could only ate porridge and drink plain water for her breakfast,lunch and also dinner.I can still remember when I chatted with her,suddenly the blood burst from her nose.she wiped up the blood and smiled at me to show that she was fine.I woke up from her side and ran into the toilet accompanied with tears.I would stay in the toilet for half an hour to calm myself and I could hear her calling my name for many times.

        Whenever I took my steps out from the toilet,I made sure to be stronger to face her.I wish she could not see my swollen eyes as I dont want her feel sad.she would ask me to sat beside her on her bed.she hugged and kissed me for a moment.I could felt her sadness eventhough she did not show it to me.she started the conversation , "Alice,please promise me that you would not cry when I have to go to see Him.take care of mom and dad.send my regards to them and tell them that I am happy because I have such a caring and loving parents and also sister.I am sorry for my wrong doings.dont ever forget me okay?I am sure you can make them happy without me here." she hugged me and she fell asleep in my arms.unfortunately,she was blew her last breath in my arms.now,she left me,mom and dad.we have to learn how to survive without her anymore.i reminded myself for not crying as i has promised to sarah.i have to be stronger.

Calling from the nurse returns me back to the reality."doc,are you ready for the next patient?for your information,she is blood cancer person." the nurse said. "let her come into my room". the patient was entered my room and she told me everything about her disease. "dont worry,miss.i will help you the best i could." i said to her and smile broadly.she reminds me of sarah and how much i missed her.Sarah,thank you for inspiring me to be a successful doctor.eventhough i could not help you,but i promised to myself that i will help people just like you before:)